Inside the belly of a fish

I wish not to be too vague. I pray what I write may point to Christ and Christ alone. 

To explain the sudden lack of blog posts would be to explain my current state of mind. And to do that I must explain my current location – a pentagonal room with a an en suite, heated floors, a bed, a desk, inside a mental health hospital. 

My soul has always flickered faintly with moments of scorching blaze caused by the divine fuel of Gospel and prayer. It seems in my act of disobedience to turn to our Father in prayer during this time of difficulty has led my mind to also flicker as faint. But how grand it is the times the Lord provides. Now all I can do is pray. Pray that my diseases be remedied. Pray that the trauma I have caused may be healed (and if I may be so bold, healed and forgiven). Pray that I not focus merely on writing about things people may find intellectually nourishing. But first and foremost nourishing for the soul. 

I named this blog yes I know the way. To remind me that though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, not only do I know the way to the light; I also know “The Way” as Jesus referred to himself in John 14:6. I know Him personally as He knows me. I know that no matter how lonely or isolated I feel, I know that Jesus became the peak, the epitome, the superlative of loneliness by taking all my sorrow and all my loneliness and all my sin on Calvary. And when he rose up again, it was an act that would ensure all that I put forward to the cross shall remain on earth as I meet Him in the middle of the air. But meeting is yet to come, and I have not reached my full age for the reaping to begin. But I will wait. And I will be filled with joy. 

But while I remain and shadow upon shadow pile themselves on top of eachother inside my brain, the Lord holds me fast even more. In my own personal experience, His grip on me cannot be broken. Though I keep running to Tarshish, the Lord sends another Fish to swallow me up and deliver me to shore. And like Jonah I will pray

Each day I stay here I pray for all those who have prayed for me. I pray God blesses them. As they have been the road signs on my path pointing me to Jesus and forbidding the way to oblivion.  Glory be to God!

I pray this is helpful. If not. Then I pray I remove it promptly 

“…but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.”
‭‭Romans‬ ‭5:3-5‬